I realize that the children who are the hardest to love probably need it the most, but I am trying really hard to stay patient here and it’s difficult. I’ve been a Big Sister to a now 12 year old girl for a little over a year now, and whenever it seems like we are making progress things quickly being to regress.
She got a phone. Her time with me used to be the few hours outside of school a week where she wasn’t staring at a TV screen or the computer. Now she has a screen she can carry with her in her pocket, and she acts as though it’s torture to put it down. I know that every kid gets obsessed with their phone in the beginning, I’m just as guilty, but it just makes me sad that she only craves external entertainment.
I know that these hours are not for me, they’re for her. But sometimes when she’s being rude, or demanding for more and more expensive things, or ignoring me completely, I really don’t feel like I’m making a difference. How can you change someone’s life when you are allotted so little time with them? I am trying to remain optimistic and patient, I know she’s a smart and energetic girl because I’ve gotten so many glimpses of her true spirit. Right now it is just a challenge.
Have you ever felt like you were up against too many external factors to make a difference? What did you do?